To my best-friend-partner-in-crime-platonic-lover-Sean.
Just writing your name makes me smile. Everyday with you has got that Christmas morning feel to it, pretty much because your whole thing is “It’s Tuesday! How are we gonna celebrate!”
And celebrate we will….and have. A lot.
We started doing yoga at the same time, and I’d always admire your giant calves from afar, marveling at how someone had calves as ginourmous as mine. So just like that, instant love. You are also the sweatiest man I have ever met in my life, and I could say the word yo— and before I got to the –ga, you are sweating. But damn are you sexy. You got that “hey, so I just stepped out of a pool of sexy and amazing, and my eyes are blue and I have an irresistable smile with dimples” way about you.
We can hit on eachother merclessly furthering confusing everyone around us, but well, I think the jig is up, in Rochester anyway. We need to take our act to a new town since we are amazing wing-men/woman for one another. Wait, no were not. Were not that at all. We are terrible about assiting one another in meeting people we could actually date, cause when you and are together it’s like we go in some bubble, where we point at eachother and laugh hysterically, and you put donuts in my mouth, and I order you extra bottles of wine. And I laugh so hard that I start pounding my little feet on the ground (usually in flip flops or sneakers) and even though that’s innapropriate for the fancy resturants you like, we do it anyway. And so there we have it. Me and you at dinner for the gazzilionth time, my finale of eating donuts, and you sampling multiple beverages. We got this down.
Now every once in a while you will call me or text me and say “that’s it. I’m not eating carbs. I’m not drinking. I’m going to bed at 9 every night. And I’m going to finish reading that book” And this is what I’ve learned to say….well, it’s less of a say and more of a noise…”mmmm.” I like to keep it indiscriminate, as “mmmm” as a response can be many things: a solid nod of support, a curious invitation to tell me more, or a yeah-okay, see you on Friday where you look across the table and cheers your way out of your vow declaring “life is too short, F it.”
You have taught me that, as you do so many others, this is your gift. To show people to get the heck out of the small box they are living in, and get into the world. But to not just arrive into the world and whisper, “I think I’ll have the soup.” But to launch into the world and without abanadon ask for “one of everything.” Yes sure you do this in meals, but my friend, you do this in LIFE. And this is my very part about you, you have this amazing appetite for life, and please hear me, never ever ever apologize for that. First of all, you work your tail off. You DESERVE this. And second, you are the most generous man, frankly person, I have ever met. Most Uncles might take their nephews to a bounce house, you? You buy them one and have it set up on Christmas morning. Most friends might order a pizza and break-out a 6 of bud-light. You? You make the pizza on the grill from scratch and your import beer from Denmark. It simply does not occur to you that there are other options. So I know you will continue to do this the rest of your life, you love decadance, but please know that if everything were to fall away tomorrow, and what was left was just you, you’d still have that amazing ability to make every single person feel as though they were the freaking-second to the throne. What I want you to know always is that people love you because your spirit is generous, and big, and amazing…the other stuff? It’s fun and delicious, but it’s a small side of you that your pretty comfortable hiding behind. But here’s the deal, order the pizza, break-out the bud light, the people that love you will always be there.
I think about the trip we took to Kripalu all the time, how amazing it was to introduce you to my favorite place on earth, and to my favorite teacher Seane Corn. From the moment we left Rochester with enough road trip snacks for the apocolypse, to every amazing meal, session, walk, massage, that final “good-night” we’d say over giggles…that was by far one of my most favorite trips of my whole life. I love seeing you like that, to me, this is you. Eyes wide open, hands open, mind open….just open. You are my favorite person all the time, but seeing you in an environment like that was so wonderful. I know we will go back there together often. And now you are sharing it with your brothers this Fall, cause that’s what you do. When something is amazing you want the whole world to feel it too.
You have been there every step of the way during my journey into becoming a yoga teacher, not just cause you are there in so many classes, but because you are my call whenever I come back from a training, your first words always “Tell me everything!” And even though it takes us about 7-times longer than most people having conversations cause “-omg-you’re not going to believe-and holy crap-is that a unicorn!-ook at that tree-and you’re never going to believe-and then I was like-and he was like-and I was like WHaaaat!—” “Wait, what were talking about again?” Haha, we always get there eventually. We have these amazing, full, conversations about life, and all there-in, and these are my favorite you and me moments too.
You are on a roll my friend. I’ve never seen your more commited than I see you now to living your life full and purposeful. Finding the balance between champagne and sunshine, and everything in between. You are enrolling as many people around you as possible into your journey, including your foundation: your brothers. Seeing you 3 supporting one another in each of your unique ways is so amazing. Keep staying steady in the knowing that what you put out there is exactly what you are getting back in. And that ultimatley you are completely responsible and accountable for the everday choices of how and who. And for the larger choices of life of how big and how bright.
You are one of the brightest lights I know. And you have gave me light in moments when I have needed it the most, but also in moments when I’m on full-beam as well and we create this aura around us that I think has NASA wondering, what’s going on down there in Rochester NY? I will always always have light to spare for you, I am going to miss seeing you all the time, but no matter where I go…you’re there. Cause we’re best friends. And thats what best-friends do. Stay commited to the things that matter to you most, and moment by moment start sharing with people, you. The real you. Cause you are pure magic. I love you friend. I already cant wait to see you when I come back.